Showing posts with label Putri. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Putri. Show all posts

Tuesday, 11 May 2010

Putri pun Rindu

Dalam tergesa-gesa, saya terpijak gula-gula getah. Dalam hati, "Blender!! Jangan tangkap kaki Mummy!". Memang itulah kerja Blender, bila orang berjalan, dia suka melompat-lompat sambil menyelit-nyelit di antara langkah kaki. Dan kerja saya adalah marah-marah bila dia buat begitu. Saya terlupa, tiada lagi Blender. Itu cuma gula-gula getah yang membuatkan selipar saya terasa seperti ditarik ke belakang bila melangkah.

Semalam saya bersama-sama kakak saya yang sulung dan Putri singgah di Kaison, 1 Borneo. Seperti biasa, kalau dia yang mendukung Putri, pasti singgah di seksyen alat permainan. Mungkin kakak saya tidak sengaja, dia telah mengambil sebuah patung anjing (pada saya itu patung anak serigala) dan berkata, "Eeee...patung ini lembut sekali". Putri tiba-tiba ketawa kesukaan dan menarik patung itu ke dakapannya. Dia memeluk. Mencium. Teruja dan ketawa.

Saya datang dan mengambil satu patung beruang. Sama lembut. Saya serahkan kepada Putri. Sekarang Putri memeluk dua patung. Dia bertambah suka. Oh adakah perempuan memang dilahirkan untuk suka kepada benda yang comel-comel? Sungguh natural, tiada siapa menyuruh dia peluk cium patung itu.

Niat saya memberi dia patung beruang itu supaya saya boleh menarik patung yang satu lagi dari tangannya. Kalau dia mahu patung, biarlah patung beruang. Sebab semua kanak-kanak suka teddy bear kan, saya tidak mahu nanti dia cepat bosan kalau tidak suka. Tapi bila saya tarik patung anak serigala itu, Putri mengemaskan dakapannya. Bila saya cuba tarik patung beruang itu pulak, perlahan-lahan dia lepaskan. Jadi kakak saya kata, "Biarlah, saya beli yang ini".

Putri terus memeluk patung barunya sampailah saya meletakkan dia di dalam carseat. Sejurus sahaja kereta mula bergerak, diapun tertidur.

Gambar yang saya letakkan di atas adalah gambar yang saya ambil pagi tadi. Putri berbaring di atas patung itu seperti yang biasa dilakukannya terhadap Blender.

Adakah anda terfikir, apa yang saya fikirkan?

Tuesday, 16 February 2010

Putri

Me and husband never plan to adopt a child, somehow... here we are.

Actually she came into our life since August last year. She and her mother had nowhere to go. But that time we only meant to help, temporarily giving them shelter. Somewhere in December, they left.

Until January, we learnt that the mother is willing to hand her child to a couple, but then the couple cancelled the plan because of unavoidable circumstances. Unfortunately the mother already left, so she has nobody to take care of her. Cutting the story short, Putri finally ended up with us.

A child is always welcomed into our house; but I never thought it would be this way. I thought I would have 9 months to get prepared, mentally, emotionally, financially etc. What happen now is like our life crashing into something in just a blink of an eye. Maybe things would be smoother if we do have plan for it, but in this case, the decision is made up just because an innocent child really needs a home urgently.

Until today, me and hubby still haven't speak much seriously about the matter, we didn't declare anything, or discuss anything; like, who's going to take care of the baby when we go to work?

We're still adjusting.

So I've been carrying Putri wherever I go. To office. Bank. Post office. Buying groceries. Etc. I put a pillow on the passengers's seat, and secure her with the safety belt, but she don't want to stop crying. So I have to pull over, put her on my lap and drive with one hand. Owh, what a scary situation.

Now my car is equipped with a baby car-seat but when not driving, I still need to carry her all the time.

I do feel like breaking down sometimes. Office. Home. Stamp. Baby. I have a hard time adjusting. I don't want to be over-ambitious, I can never replace her real mother and perhaps I would never be the best Mom for her, but as long as she's with me, I will try my best to provide her love and protection. As long as she needs me.

So everyone.
Meet Putri Nur Summayah. She's only 8 months old.

And Putri, this is Mommy's blog. Meet my blog readers.